OK, so now I'm scared.......again

I had my echocardiograph on Friday morning...the one he originally questioned me needing!!
You always know the outcome isn't going to be good when within seconds of placing the ultrasound thing on my heart and doing a quick sweep around the technician says, "Are you seeing a cardiologist Judy?" Of course my answer was no, but I will be now, "....my first appointment is on 19th January." She was pleased about that, and told me that the cardiologist I am seeing is a bit of an expert when it comes to cancer patients with heart problems so that's good news.
Anyway, the procedure continued with a bit of banter and basically her telling me that she can't tell me much because the doctor needs to look at it. By the time we got to the end though she was unhappy with my appointment on the 19th. She wanted me to see the doctor sooner so looked for an earlier date. Now I was worried.....if it can't wait a week it must be pretty bad. You see the doctor is away on holidays at the moment and his first day back is Tuesday, and of course, that's when I now have an appointment. Tuesday afternoon at 2:45pm.
It's been a while, like a couple of months I think, since I have been scared. But I am really beside myself. The poor technician was trying to change the appointment with the minimum of fuss and she was obviously trying not to alarm me. In the end she gave up, because you can't pretend that you want to change it for any reason other than that the results you see on the screen are not good.
Oh gosh, what lies ahead now. I know this is exactly what I shouldn't be thinking, and of course the last thing I should be doing is worrying, but there you go.......I am human, and some things you just can't help.
On the up side, at least someone is looking at it now, and based on the urgency of getting me seen earlier it would suggest they may actually be able to do something about it.
So until Tuesday, when I can tell you some more, I will go and try not to worry too much!!
Take care xxx

NEVER, NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP