I've been a bit slack...

I haven't had that much to report the past few days, so I haven't written. Also, when I am feeling ordinary I tend not to write because I don't like to sook too much!!
Anyway, the past couple of days I have been pretty bad. Monday I was really nauseous and tired all day, one of those can't get out of bed days, and yesterday was much the same but slightly better. I have also developed a rash on my face...God only knows what that is from, time will tell I guess. My beautiful nurse has got me back on the happy tablets. I started yesterday, so should find some improvement today, hooray for the happy tablets!
I have found though, that feeling good all the time can be troublesome. I forget that I am ill. On one hand that can be good, because the positive attitude certainly aids recovery but on the other, emotionally I come crashing down when I feel bad and am reminded of the reality. It's tough....like everything else in life you have to find the balance that works, well enough to get on with life, but not so well I forget why I'm here!
I wondered why my nurse was so worried about me emotionally, now I know why, she has seen it enough times as a palliative care nurse, the massive fall after the high. So I just have to be sure that this time around on the happy tablets I don't lose touch of reality! But enjoy feeling well just the same.
If anyone can explain how I can possibly have a headache when I am so much morphine I would be really interested to know. Or even better still, Andy accidentally bent back my big toenail yesterday, it still hurts now! When people come in from car crashes on the TV they are given less morphine than I take and my toe still hurts....what's doing with that????
Anyway, enough about that! No more news on the house yet, we should get the building inspection report back today and the pest report tomorrow, and the loan should be approved today as well. Exciting times ahead. We will have to start going through everything now to be ready in time for moving, we have too much junk! I am such a hoarder and I need to stop it or I will end up on one of those current affair shows as the crazy junk lady! Speaking of shows the RPA episode with my friend Jay that I may be on is on tonight so don't miss it. Even if I'm not on it, there will be something about the support group I attend and of course a follow up to Jay's story who is a fellow Melanoma patient, or should I say Melanoma survivor!
I am off to have some scans this arvo, so I will have the results tomorrow. I don't know what to expect this time.....the same or better I think. Definitely not worse. I will let you know tomorrow when I have the results, assuming I don't break my fast again today and have to reschedule again!!
Anyway, I think that's about it for now. I will post tomorrow with the results. xxx

NEVER, NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP