A bit slack....

I've been a bit slack over the past week. Haven't written since the trivia night.
Mostly because nothing much has been happening but also anything that has, hasn't been great so I haven't bothered writing it down, although I suppose that's supposed to be the therapeutic part for me!
I have really been down the past week. The chemo has knocked me a round a bit this time, I do remember them telling me that it is a cumulative effect and that you will feel worse each time. That's something to look forward to isn't it.....not!
I have been really lethargic and just feeling off. Of course I haven't had an appetite either. Along with my nurse, my brother Jeff lectures me constantly on the value of food. It's not like I don't know this, it's just I don't feel like it, or if I do and I eat it, I bring it back up. Consequently, I have lost more weight. I am down to 56kg now, my normal weight is 62kg.
As a result of all of those factors, my nurse Jenelle, spoke to one of my doctors to get me onto a happy drug. Which along with perking me up a bit should stimulate my appetite. I found that I ate a fair amount for dinner last night.....far more than I have been, but it was a roast!!
I have another couple of weeks before my appointment with Kefford and crew re chemo and scans, so next week is appointment free. We are taking advantage and going with friends to Dubbo zoo for a couple of days. Staying the first night in the zoo and the second just in a motel in town. It should be great and hopefully my health and spirits will have picked up so we can really make the most of it.
I think I may be spending too much time focussing on the chemo rather than all the other things. I think if I just let it go and focus on good stuff, like getting a camper trailer it will be better for me.
I go and see the psychologist this afternoon. Originally, it was just to learn some techniques with my breathing for when I get tight and sore in the chest and feel like I am not getting enough air in but I might and up having just a general chat with her as well.
Anyway, that's about it for now xxx

NEVER, NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP