Yes it actully is the wee hours of the morning this time. It's about 4:30am and I can't sleep because I keep coughing. Don't know what has brought this on except maybe chemo??
Speaking of which, I had chemo today. It was yucky again....they found a vein easily enough but unfortunately it was hurting really badly as it went in so they had to slow down the flow of the infusion which means it's less pain but it takes longer to run through. There is nothing really good about the whole experience. With any luck this will be last experience with the DTIC because I'll get onto the b-raf trial next month....fingers crossed.
I am usually saddenned when I leave there because I can't get over how many people are suffering and fighting this horrible disease....cancer generally I mean. It's such a bastard of a disease and there is no rhyme or reason as to who or when it strikes and that is something clearly evident in the chemo suite when you look aound at the 50 or so other people and they range in age, culture and creed as much as those walking along the street outside. It favours no-one more than another.
I felt pretty crappy afterwards today so went straight to bed when I got home. Not good for the kids because they get panicked when Mum is in bed and start playing up more. And of course Matt starts talking about dying again. His little brain is never far away from thinking the worst poor little poppet.
I was trying to get some rest because the Glenmore trivia night is on tonight and I would like to at least try to make an appearance. So much for that when I am wide awake at 4 am!! I am sure I will go back to sleep soon, I haven't coughed while I have been typing this so that's a good sign!
Well, I will lie down and try this sleep thing again xxxx
NEVER, NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP!
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hey there sweet girl... I have my fingers crossed that this is the turning point for you all.. hang in there cause we all know that you will NEVER NEVER NEVER GIVE UP on this beast of a thing... cherish every new day you have with your 4 darlings... cause we all know it is them that keeps you fighting this fight of a lifetime. Accept all the love and prayers and they will help you on your way. You are one very special person who has touched my life and taught me what being humble is all about. You, Miss Judy are a beautiful person so my wish is for you to be here to spend lots more precious time with your family and of course your friends.
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Rosanne xoxooxoxoxox
Hey Jude Well honey what the hell cxan i say , except you are one hell of a lady you have become someone to me that i really look at and truely admire and think to myself hey that woman is bloody amazing through all the self inflicted pain i have caused myself & family and sat there in my pitty party to have come across a woman whom was born and breed in the area i was to final end up with a Mulcahy yet you never was given a choice in anyway for the pain and suffering in your life like i was. The one thing i have learnt from thi is about life, choices and Strength and life is to short and special to waste on stupid selfish acts and shit. Thanks Jude for sharing your strengths you have become some one i truely admire Love you Bron xxoo AND NEVER NEVER NEVER GIVE UP XXOO
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