Well, my heart has been behaving over the past week. I have had pains nearly every day but they haven't been as significant as the one's last Wednesday so I haven't needed to call the ambulance. Apparently that is quite normal and is what I am to expect from now on. It will just come and go in ebbs and flows.
I still can't believe that I may have had a heart attack. It just doesn't seem right, although I suppose if the tumour gets larger and starts taking up more space it makes sense that the pressure it puts on my heart would cause some kind of reaction.
I have been very nervous for the past week, just taking it really easy because I am petrified of the same thing happening again. I have been staying in bed until mid morning every day and keeping everything I have been doing very low key. I think I said last time the reality of the disease has come back to me now, so I am putting my health first and back to living each day as though it could be my last.
On that note, we decided to get a room in a city hotel for NYE. The room has harbour views but not the harbour bridge. It will be good to share it with the kids and while it probably won't be the most magnificent view, given we are missing the harbour bridge, I am sure the experience will be great anyway.
I hate though now that I fear everytime I go somewhere that I am going to have issues. Like for example, I am thinking, "What if I have another cardiac event on NYE? How will the ambulance get to me? Will I be alright?" I will end up worrying myself to an early grave! Silly I know, but I just can't help it.
I have to go and have a blood test today because they are going to restart my chemo finally. I guess I will have the blood test today, results will go to them tomorrow and I will start on Monday. I don't know.....they may want me to start right away so on the Friday. I am a little apprehensive as apparently nausea is a bit of an issue on this drug and it doesn't take much for me to feel nauseous. And add to that that I am the biggest sook in the world....it's not a good combination!
When next I write I expect I will have experienced NYE and I may have started chemo so wish me luck and I'll keep you posted on how it all goes.
Take care and Happy New Year. xxx
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Darling girl.. I hope you have a wonderful NYE celebration with Jason and the boys... remember to let everyone else do for you and you just put your feet up and relax...
ReplyDeleteWe are all thinking about you and sending lots of good vibes and prayers your way.
See you real soon
Love
Rosanne oxox
Have a nice time in the city. Happy New Year to you, Jason and the kids. Lots of love to you all xxxxxxxxx
ReplyDeleteHave a fab time in the city, bringing in the new year with all your boys.
ReplyDeleteLots of love and kisses
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Dear Judy,
ReplyDeleteHave a wonderful time tonight with your lovely family. Enjoy the wonderful experience with your loved ones and sit back and enjoy! I think of you often. Michelle and Tom Martin xxx
Judy, enjoy the whole experience tonight and take in your little boys faces with the excitement of the fireworks, something they will always remember.
ReplyDeleteHave a good night and I hope all goes well with the Chemo.
Love always,
Rhonda and the girls.
xoxoxo
Hey Jude,
ReplyDeleteHave a great evening with your boys. It will be great to enjoy it in the comfort of a hotel and not the kaos if actually being down on the harbour!
Our thoughts and prayers are with you and Jason,
Love Annette and Family
xoxoxoxo
Welcome to 2010 and CONGRATULATIONS on making it! You are an inspiration to many around the world, don't think otherwise!!! We missed you in Mollymook but hope you had a wonderful NYE. May 2010 bring you many happy memories with your beautiful family. We love you and feel priviledged to have made many special memories with you and the Fam in 2009 xxx
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