Well, I suppose I was due for some bad news....
The echo I had yesterday showed some more fluid had gathered around my heart. I don't know what else, as I haven't seen the report, so I am not sure if the heart function is impeded which is the factor the drug trials group will be looking at. I am preparing however to hear that I have been unsuccessful at getting on the trial. I believe that will probably be the outcome in light of the results of the CT scan I had yesterday too.
It was all bad. Instead of going into too much detail I will recite verbatim, the conclusion from the report ; "Overall there has been progression of the disease, with an increase in size and number of the pulmonary, hepatic and myocardial metastases. Multiple new bilateral breast metastases. Metastasis in the upper right anterior abdominal wall is also larger. New pleural effussions and larger pericardial effusion." For those who get lost in terminology, in my words, more and larger tumours in lungs, liver and heart. New tumours in the breasts. The one in my gut is bigger. There is fluid around my lungs and there is more fluid around my heart than previously.
So as you can gather from that, all is not happy in the Mulcahy household this evening.
Another slap in the face you may say. A wake up call that this is real and it is going to take everything I have to win this fight.........it has one the first round, but it's only the beginning.
Oh, we found out yesterday that the house has been sold. Our lease is valid until February 2010, but the house settles on 11th Nov and the new owners want to live in it, not rent it out. So legally they can't kick us out but it would be nice to get out before it settles. Just something else to occupy us if we found ourselves with some spare time!!!
Well, I am absolutely exhausted and suffering from terrible nausea so I am off to sleep.
Sorry, to drop such a bombshell then run, but that's the internet for you.
I will let you know more as I do....probably tomorrow I will hear about the trial. xxx
NEVER, NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP! Even when they give you shitty news!
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Oh my darling girl... NEVER, NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP... keep thinking those positive thoughts.. we are all sending buckets of love to you and your boys.
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Jude, the fight has begun and the first part was hard but not as hard as others face. You must always say I won't give in there's too much I haven't done yet. The doctors can tell what they think will happen but who said we have to do as they say. Just pick yourself up dust yourself off and start all over again. You know we are with you all the way and you'll prove them all wrong. With all our love and thoughts of added strength to you , Jason and the boys. Love always John and Sue xoxoxoxo
ReplyDeleteHello Jude, it doesn't sound great but my fingers and toes are crossed that you will still be accepted. My thoughts and prays are with you. Put your feet up and try to relax tonight with your husband and children nothing else matters. You are a marvel. Sherry
ReplyDeleteLoves and positive vibes sent through the computer..we know you'll never give up, no matter how many times you're pushed down.... xoxox
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