Side Effects

Well, it seems like those dreaded chemo side effects have finally caught up with me. They told me the worst time would be 7 - 14 days after treatment and we are smack bang in the middle of that now.
The nausea is the most prevalent thing, but I got a fright last night when my nose started bleeding profusely! I freaked out. Of course it always seems a lot worse than it actually is when it's night time and you aren't expecting it. Once I checked the informamation they gave me about DTIC and it's side effects and saw that bleeding is one of them I felt a bit better. I find comfort in knowing why something is happening. I may not understand or agree with it, but if I know why I feel better somehow.
The pump has been running like a gem the past 24 hours. Unfortunately, we had a bit of a hiccough with it, not last night but the night before. Firstly, it kept stopping. It would go for 20 - 30 mins, beep and then stop. I would fiddle with it for a bit and it would start again. They came out and swapped it for a new one because I obviously can't be fiddling with it during the night all night. It seems when they reset the new pump they had set it too fast as it ran through during the night and was finished before I woke up. This was not good given they had been burning off on Saturday so I had been coughing all Saturday afternoon/night so I was in a bit of pain in the morning with no drugs from the pump!
Anyway, the nurse came around mid morning and fixed it all up for me, so the pain was back under control but unfortunately there's not too much more they can do for the nausea.
Oh, I finally had one of those green juices yesterday. Yes I am a procrastinator!!! It wasn't awful, but you cerainly won't find me running to the fridge to find some more! The juices are really good for the nausea too. When you feel like you can't stomach any food at least you know you are getting some good stuff - nutrients and stuff.
My friends came over on Saturday and it was so wonderful to see them. You know real friends when it can be so long since you have seen each other but it was just like we picked up where we had left off all those years ago. I said there were 3 coming but there were actually 4 and then I had another visit later in the day from another 2. I am feeling very spoilt!
Jason has gone back to work today. Let's see how he goes.....I am guessing his feet won't even touch the ground today, it has been 4 weeks now since he was in the office. It will be nice for him to get out into the real world again and try to get some normality back into his life. Well, as much as you can under the circumstances.
Well, I'm off to have my nebuliser and hopefully stop this cough for a bit.
Talk soon xxxx

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